*sigh*

I am thinking of investing in having a small sound-proof room installed so that at moments like this, I can walk into it, close the door, and scream and sob at the top of my lungs until I feel some sort of relief. I can't even resort to the heavy consumption of alcohol because I have two very special little people who need me to stay functioning 24/7. I suppose that is a good thing otherwise I would probably just give up, but man, what I wouldn't give to have just one selfish night of self pity and self destructive behaviour.